Yesterday is my saddest day in my life.After school, went home to shower. At 5+pm, went to JP and find friends. After that, went to take train with Jin Jun, Sandra, Beeting, Mingjun, Weixiang, Jovis, Shawn and Glenn. So we took train to Tiong Bahru there. Waited for gregston to come. So we wait awhile. Jingming, Chewyun and Jie en take taxi come. Cuz they wait for Chewyun. So after gregston came, we took bus go to blk 67 where Miss Lee mother Funeral held. Reached there, saw Mdm oen and Mr woo. Tio shocked when see them at there. So we reached there talk and eat. So after that, we went to other place and slack. Went to burn joss stick for miss lee mum too. After that, when I saw Miss Lee cry, I cry also. Hais... I see her very poor think. Her mother this year 97 years old le and she had to leave miss lee like that. Hais... I think what if my mother like that. My mother treat me so good and I treat her back like fuck. She already got sick le and I only know to make her angry and sad. I cant make her happy always. I'm a failure daughter. Hais... ): So i cry and cry. When I cry, Jin Jun come and ask me why I cry, but I dont have the guts to tell him. Hais... ): So Chewyun comfort me and calm me down. Ming Jun also. I suddenly went to lie on Ming Jun shoulder and cry. Jin Jun saw it, I think he felt jealous. After he saw that, his mood was totally different. He emo and angry. Hais... I'm a fucker. Awhile later, Jing Ming and Ming Jun quarral because of me. Jing Ming want to know the reason why I cry. But chewyun ask Jing ming to ask Ming Jun. Ming Jun dont want tell, so they two quarral. On that time, I saw them quarral, I cry and shouted at them. CAN YOU TWO PLEASE STOP QUARRALING A NOT. MISS LEE MOTHER FUNERAL TODAY, CAN LET HER GO OFF PEACEFUL A NOT. So after that, Ming Jun walk away and Jing ming walk another side. Sandra, chewyun and I chase Ming Jun. Sandra and Chewyun chase 1st, I behind chase. While chasing, need cross road, I dont know what am I doing. My brain was totally blank. I didnt know car was turning in and I just cross like that. I almost kanna car bang. In my heart, I think, why the car dont want to bang me, if bang me, I die. Nothing will happend already. I'm a trouble maker, only know how make people sad and angry and quarral. Yesterday, because of me, Jing Ming and Ming Jun quarral, Sandra and Ming Jun quarral, Jin Jun angry, Miss Lee mother funeral got trouble. All because of me. I'm a fucking trouble maker bitch. If I die, nothing will happend. Hais... ): Went to pull Ming Jun and shouted at him, to go back and let miss lee mother funeral go peacefully. But he never listen, still continue walk. Hais... Talk and chewyun while crying. So after that, went back and find them. Jingming, went to councel me. Jie en also. Listen carefully what they councel me. Thanks to Jing ming who counsel me about my parents think. He is the 1 who calm me down alot. He is a good brother of mine. About 10pm, left that place. Went to take bus to bukit merah int. So from there Bee ting and I took cab home to bedok. Waited for cab so long. The rest took bus back. Hais... I still very sad now. Because I make Jin Jun very angry. I lie on mingjun shoulder, he saw me cry badly, but dont know how to cheer me up and concern about me. Still got other bustard things I done to him, but I dont know how say. Hais... I really want to say sorry to him, when I treated him bustard yesterday. My heart still love him but now he really very angry le. Now when I text him, he dont want to reply me. Hais... Jin Jun really very sorry I let you down. I can see you treat me very good, but yesterday I treat you like bustard. Actually yesterday, I want to hug you and cry on ur shoulder when you and I tgt. But I just don't have the guts to do that. I'm really really very sorry. I hope you will give me 1 more chance and forgive me. Please dont angry at me anymore. My heart will still love CHUA JIN JUN. I'm sorry Jin Jun piggy! );

Thanks Jingming,Jin Jun,Ming Jun,Sandra, Chewyun and Jie en that counsel me. Thanks to Gregston,Shawn,Jovis,Wei Xiang who cheer me up! Thanks to Ming Jun and Chewyun who lend me their shoulder to cry all I want. Thanks to Beeting who accompany me home late at night. Once again thanks to all my lovely friends. Sorry for the yesterday trouble. I LOVE YOU GUYS! ♥

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